yesterday went to volunteer. a slow day.
then tried to get my immunizations for school. unfortunately the office was closed. asdjfkl; doctor's office closeeeed everytime i try to go! i guess i'll have to make an appt.
came home and had a nap.
went out with layne.
watched a mythbusters marathon.
came home and worked on my website.
wrapped xmas gifts.
scanned photos.
and that's it.

here's my: black friday adventure.
it's pretty self explanatory.


black friday shopping experience was amazing.
pics and details soon.

had a tarot reading by the great bretticus!
very interesting... very real.
i know very well that we create our own meaning.
so maybe i only read into the translation what i want- i made it apply.
but it was real, nonetheless.
it was about my ever present conflict arising from confusing emotions
(what i want)
with actions
(what i am supposed to do).
i guess this ties in to my simian creases, too.
(will explain later)
the spread went through my entire meta cognition.
the most interesting part is that it didn't answer any questions.
but it referenced what was actually happening.
so i have no idea what the future is.
it is telling me the same thing that i have read a hundred times in my favorite story:


i forgot for a while that i can make it good or bad.

my reading had some very specific references that i recognized:
eight cups meant waiting for my ship to come in (and being disappointed)
reversed king of swords meant disapproval
three pentacles meant a strong foundation
and in general, a lot of pentacles and cups: physical items and emotions.
maybe a little depressing sounding but i know what this is about and maybe i can fix it.
i'm very indecisive about everything particularly from the confusion between emotions and actions.
i don't know what to do- what i want or what i should do.
how am i supposed to make a life altering decision if i can't even decide what i want for dinner?

this is the kind of discussion i have in my brain all the time.
i love to self analyze
(yes, it's egotistical but i don't think one can understand others before first understanding themselves)
and this is a topic i go back and forth on all the time.
what's a priority? what's more important?
what's morally appropriate?
can you really survive on volition alone?
i was so shocked it came out in the cards today.
a bit disappointed that i don't have any concrete answers,
but i am glad to know i'm on the right thinking track.

timshel !!

{sorry a little non sequitur.
it makes a little sense to me.
i am more used to blogging like this from gaia.
so pardon my mismatched sentences/phrases.
i'll discuss this more later.
just had to get it out before i forget.}


it's T-Day. i have two cakes to bake.
but i got to sleep in. and i'm listening to crazy awesome music
(re: your letter by We Landed on the Moon!)
and having my daily coffee- in a real mug, not a thermos!
so i went to photobooth to share my joy with you.
have a good one.
and get some rest before black friday!
(i'll be out all day, don't know about you guys.)

ala lifehacker,
free software i am thankful for on this thanksgiving (and this year and forever):
- stroke it (pc)
- alarm clock 2 (mac)
- gimmesometune (mac)
- handbrake (pc/mac)
- iTuneshut (mac)
- DeXPose (pc)
- spybot (pc)
- rainlendar (pc)
- adium (mac)



wayne is trying to shake the coagulated powered creamer into his coffee cup.  it's rattling.  shellie, who sits behind me, said "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!  STOP IT?!  IT'S IRRITATING!".
and i almost said aloud, "YOU SHUT UP!  YOU'RE IRRITATING!"
good thing i caught myself before i said it!  i started saying "YOuuu..." but i clapped my hand over my mouth before anymore could escape.
man, karma would come back to me in a bad way if i had really said it.
but i probably have bad karma for thinking it.
damn samsara.
back to work...


new album in january.
titled "TONIGHT: Franz Ferdinand"
i am in love with their first two albums...
one day when i'm having a really lousy day, i'll go out and buy them- like when i bought my arcade fire discs.

here's some love from the quartet:

i really love their photos and site design, as well.
i am a huuuuge fan of b&w photo sets (can you tell?)

speaking of which, i did six fiber prints in the darkroom today.
only one of them printed good.
and maybe none of them will come out after all because i forgot to dry them face down.
i dried it face up, damn it.
everyone else did too- i hope those nice big prints that brian and wayne did aren't a lost cause.
i only have a few more sheets of fiber.
and a few more sheets of rc.
and exactly ten sheets of rc 11 x 14 size.
so i hope all goes well...
i really want to get to my 11 x 14 prints.
damn fiber took so long today, i only had time to measure my easel, set up the neg and do two tiny (and unsuccessful) test strips.
good thing i can stay late on friday.

my cell phone is crapping out.

i was actually quite excited about wordpress

i even made an account and a blog and started setting it up!
so i'm back to blogger again.
and yes, i removed my old blogger.
it's a little confusing for me- i'm trying to consolidate my multiple blogs into this blog (but can i sentimentally let go of xanga? i don't know. i'll have to take it slow.)
so that's two. then i have my gaian journal (which i can never migrate, but it should stay unpublicized for now). and i am redirecting my www2 site to here.
i'm trying to decide if my other blogs are significant enough to migrate. it's really too bad my main blogs: gaia and xanga are not going to be moved here. i used to update either of them almost every day! xanga, going back to the early 2000s and gaia (really updated everyday! since 05 or 06.

worked on my sewing project again today- converting an XL sweatshirt into a yummy fitted coat. i finally finished the sleeves, i'm trying to decide if i want to keep the banded bottom or not.

found some cool new music today- "re: your letter" by we landed on the moon! check it out, i twittered it. --->

i have issues... < ul> issues.

guh, i am getting really irked by the little things to tweak in the SPDH website (one current project).  can't get the stupid alignment for my css.  can't locate a style on my template.  can't figure out the weird margins on my <ul> .  i give up.  i'm going to work on it tomorrow.
on teh other hand, my other project for professor mccullough is going along so smoothly.  it will be finished in no time! 
oh well.  if everything was easy, it wouldn't be fun anymore, eh?
nothing like a good puzzle to set your mind to.


tomorrow if i have more time i'll make a css layout with more columns.
is that even allowed in blogger?
i need more columns.
i don't like having to scroll down so much on the side bar.




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