immunology will single handedly kill my gpa and get me kicked out of the mlt program, i swear.
i love LOVE john b.- one of the funniest, funnest, coolest, smartest profs i know.
but his class is from 1245-0300pm and my brain is so fried after my 8-12 class.
it takes SO MUCH effort to stay awake.
immunology is seriously cool stuff but i am just so tired that everything is just flying over my head.
plus, he has these free form lectures and i never know what to take notes on. should i write on my lecture handouts? should i be taking my own notes (if you want to see what my notes look like, by the by, you can go to my edu site: http://www2.hawaii.edu/~codilee and click on the "mlt 108" section. i take 1-4 pages of notes every class and scan them all to pdf for future reviewing. doodles and block letters included) ? should i be reading the text book? studying the textbook? before class?
and his quizzes... never know what's going to be on it! i totally studied for the wrong thing this last quiz. we were already talking o chem in class so i was studying carboxyl, carbonyl, amino, sulfhydryl... but the quiz was on clonal selection! fraaaaaaak. there was a question about b cells and i guess i over though it. i should have said "b cells make antibodies when stimulated by antigen." how simple is that? instead i panicked and wrote something like "MHC on APC stimulates Tcells to make cytokines which activate B cells... " guh. and i totally forgot that toll like receptors are innate immunity. and wbc is innate immunity (damn it!) which means PAMPs are innate... so three wrong on that already. oh and macrophages innate, too. ok so four wrong. plus my stupid b cell answer. then i got the clonal selection "repetoire" question wrong. i talked about the main idea of it but didn't talk about differentiating to specific antibodies to create an "inventory". guh. which is like a super huge deal. that's what happens when you only study from the damn text book, i guess. so six wrong. i think i did ok on the questions about titers. maybe a half a point at least. this quiz is going to friggen kill my grade.
everything in class i learned before... vaguely. i remember things like protein structure and how to micropipette. but never in such detail.
and there is SO MUCH detail.
i think i am going to have to work my ass off for this class.
i wish there was more time in the day to do things.
it's really a shame that sleep is a required activity.
because, really. on tues/thurs i have class from 8-12. then 1245-3. then 445-7. then i have... 2 hours to eat, shower, chores, thumb twiddling. two hours to read/respond emails and twitters (i haven't even turned on my phone in several days)/laulima. then i need two hours to do chem problems. two hours to study immunology and take notes. two hours to do mlt homework. then i need two more hours to study specifically for upcoming quizzes. even if i decide not to go to photo lab (go home at 3pm) then i just end up using the time to do moar studying- specifically making flashcards and reviewing notes.
i never spent so much time studying in my life! this is how i studied for the ap exams. but the ap exams were only one day!
i guess i really have no right to complain- if only i actually passed chem 162 (with a C! i had a D.) in the summer then i'd have so much more time! and no pain no gain, right?
what's life without a challenge?!
immunology. I was hoping for more sunshkne but its pretty windy. Had
an exam today, this morning at 8am. I think I did ok. Not bad, but
not parfait. I know for sure I have at least 3 wrong. I think I
would have done better of I studied longer. Alas, I was tired last
night and didn't stay up past 130am.
Exam finished around 9 so I have the rest of my time off until my next
class. I did some chem problems (yuk yuk) and visited Kapu and got
some info about my flash- I want to use it tomorrow but want to do a
test roll first, but I can only do it in the dark... Guess I'll just
have to wing it. Think I'll try out my new tripod, too. No more
rubber bands! :D
Jolene sent me some info about a Lolita meet up in feb. Its at the
tcmhi! I can catch the bus there from my house! And I can get in free
from their promotion; to celebrate the 20th anniversary everyone 20
years old gets in free! Sounds like fun! I think it'll be another
good photo op- I'm just dying to get shooting again! Well, even more
I'm dying to work in the darkroom again! Next tues I definately will.
Sometimes I feel like I've blogged this before. Déjà vu.
(sometimes I go whole days listening bored half asleep.)
I had something else I wanted to say but can't remember now.
I got a gift card for hollister for christmas. I've only been in the
store two or three times before. It always makes me angry because the
store is so damn dark. Especially the dressing room. You can never
tell if the stuff actually fits or looks good because it's so dark!
And it's noisy and it smells bad and half naked men traipse around the
store refolding clothes and shuffling the hangers as soon as you are
done touching the clothes. Furthermore, it is mostly ripped up
I gave up trying to spend my credit because the store is so
irritating- practically a violation of the local disturbance of the
I went online to see if I could make a complaint and came across the
While still portraying the feeling of preppy beach wear and an
Americanized surf culture, the site is miles better than the store.
There is easy navigaton, adequate product pictures and it doesn't reek
of perfurme and belt out music in inaudible bass. I alaienjoy the
anonymity of shopping online and without being eyed out by workers.
I ended up buying a pair of dark wash jeans- without holes and stuff-
in an appropriate size (they had a short inseam) and at a cheaper
price than in store- even with the shipping.
It turned out to be a good buy- I really like the basicness of it
(definately matches a lot of things in my wardrobe and not fancy nancy
pokeys and zippers and bling) and the fit turned out alright. Over
priced? Maybe. But i used up my credit - and that was a big help. I
paid about $10 out of pocket (a little bit more than the shipping) so
it was a good deal.
Despite the cliches and connotations that go with shopping and buying
from hollister, I don't consider it a fashion or culture crime to have
and admit liking these jeans. I'm not above spwnding money at
corporate chains or big box retailers (o walmart, what would I do
without thee?) if they can benefit me in a small way. So sue me, I
look good in these skinny jeans. New pants can't change a whole
person, but they make you happier and more confident whichbleafs to
So guys, don't judge me.
It's day two of my magnesium regimen- and I don't know if it's
chemistry, weather, or placebo- but I am feeling great! The nausea is
completely gone (or back to normal, I guess) and the headaches have
decreased about 1000000000 times in intensity and recurrence. I had a
few sharp spring ups of head ache but it was gone fairly quick. This
also put me in a good mood (although they say magnesium can also
supplement certain mood drugs by increasing enzyme pathways) and I
think layne appreciated it much. ; ) maybe it really is a placebo
(although I must admit I thought the magnesium would do jack shit and
I'd end up having to visit a doc this week) or a change in weather
(the vog is leaving and it's getting really really cold) or I just
recovered from a virus of something. I don't know and can't card now
because I'm just happy its gone! I'll continue the magnesium and
report back again.
Yesterday I was kind of busy so I didn't blog. But what a he'll of a
day! My mom'e car died and caught on fire! Lucky thing she was
across the street from a fire station at the time! The car had to be
towed home and is probably never going to run again. And Then... The
toilet broke! My sister flushed and the handle just fell off! So I
opened the tank and found that the rod connecting the handle to the
chain was snapped off and had to get a new part. Ofciurse now it
starts pouring rain and I have to take the bus to walmart to get the
part... One hour later I'm on the toilet with a wrench taking the damn
thing apart. No body told me that the plastic nut is actually
tightened in the opposite (counter clockwise) direction! I was trying
to unscrew the damn thing for about 15 minutes and it was just
loosening and tightening itself over and over! Finally I decided to
try turning it in the clockwise direction figuring that it would get
so tight that it would crack and snap off (thus allowing me to remove
it) when lo! It got looser! Finally managed to get it off! And
Then... The Fricken new part that I bought had the arm at a wierd
angle so it was scraping the inside of the tank! I had to breakout
the pliers and bend it in the opposite direction so the handle would
be free to move. You know me- a good problem silver but not very good
at practical application... I finally fixed the toilet and it's
working! I'm making a note here, huge success! This is a pretty big
deal for me because I am so bad at mechanics and stuff.
And why, you may ask, was I fixibg a toilet and not at school on this
fine Friday? Because we had an island wide (almost state wide, but
the big island was nor included) civil defense warning for high
winds! Suppordly 60mph winds! However, it was just a mild panick
attack on the part of the national weather service and of was fairly
calm except for mild power outages in Kailua, waiks, and Mille ville.
There was a huge down pouf of rain a few times but we've had worse. I
did hear that Maui got the wknd pretty bad- flights were grounded
because it was too dangerous to takeoff. So
The day was spent making oatmeal cookies (see my twitter for live
photos of the process), fixing stuf, chemistry homework, and calming
Today I had my usual volunteer. Then came home and watched one of my
favorite musicals- seven brides for seven brothers- on turner classic
movies and then went out with layne. We went to look at paintball
stuff (next week Saturday, bitches!) than get some food and then
played left 4 dead.
That's all for now. Time to do laundry.
showing off my newly arrived pentax k1000.
(a superb slr! i recommend!)
i kinda miss the green hair...
my friend, gb.
one time at work we had to make 40, cat V cables.
our fingers were a little beat up from stripping wire after that.
the best part was using the connection tester- sometimes it said no connection even though it was ok.
before my diagonal hair, i had straight hair.
how i study for microbiology:
ok, that's enough.
levels are going down (according to shari shima, weather caster) and
the vog is rolling out. Nausea is still kind of off and on. At the
prodding of mom, I did a little research and found that maybe I have a
PMS induced migraine.
Personally, I always thought that migraines were a bunch of bs. I
figured you either have a headache or you don't. Migraine was like a
fancy word to describe it to get attention.
The more I read about it though, the more likely it seems. I'm
looking at a book by readers digest called "fight back with food;
using nutrition to heal what ails you" and it describes migraine as a
"throbbing headache" with early warning signs including "nausea,
weakness, sensitivity to light and sound". It can even last up to
three days, untreated.
Causes include "caffeine withdrawls, dehydration, stress, hormones,
consumption of foods with certain chemicals." I hope I'm not allergic
to lakerol. Licorice is the love of my life! I am also going to
continue my coffee habit- it looks like cutting caffeine was the
It goes on to recommend foods with magnesium (avocados, rice, winter
melon) for pain, riboflavin (mushroom, poultry, quinoa) for energy,
and Ginger for nausea.
I guess that's a start.
We'll see just how long this lasts. So far it's been a week of
general blahhness. Hopefuly this clears up before class starts
Also, do I sound hypochondriac-ish? I try not to be. Because being
sick is a fuckarow.
Today I went to imageworks in kaimuki to pick up some photo supplies.
I figure better now than when school starts and there's a rush of
people. I got some d76, dektol, 100 sheets of 8x10" ilford pearl rc,
10 sheets 11x14" ilford pearl rc, and three rolls of ilford hp5 35mm
400iso. That should hold me for a while. The lady who works there
was like "THANK YOU FOR BEING EARLY!".
I can't wait to get back to the darkroom.
Later, I spent some time with layne. We had coffee (actually, I had
coffee. He had chai :9 ) and watched harold and kumar go to white
castle. Then we watched the jackass movie. Is it messd up that
watching other peole suffer made me laugh? I think it should be called
dumbass instead of jackass.
Speaking of bad movies, last weds layne and I watched pulse 1, 2, &
3. What a load of crap. The signal was 1000000 times better than
those movies. And 2 & 3 were obviously shot on a green screen because
the lighting was so off! I think we laughed more than one is supposed
to in a scary movie! In all honesty, I didn't find it scary at all
(I've seen some scary stuff before- the strangers made me jump a
little and the first time I watched ju-on I ran out of my house after
the lady came out from under the blanket) and there were waaaaaay too
many plot holes. Oh well, at least I can say I've seen a trilogy of
horror movies in one night. How many people can say that?
Bye for now.
I'll post again later, from a real computer.
(I'm on my itouch now posting via gmail. I love blogger because I
barely have to go to the page- I'm on email all day at work anyway so
it's super easy to update. And I can do a lot of quick updates
without having to log in.)
the sulfur dioxide is blowing in. Soon it will be voggy, I know.
Headaches thus afternoon and tonight so bad. I'm ready to drive a
steak into my brain to make it stop! Anything, please!
So busy at work, too. I have flyers, surveys, brochures, websites,
laulina crap, and a slew of other things. Not helping the brain.
In a fit of insanity I splurged on two dresses, two rings, and a watch
from urban outfitters (yesterday was pay day). I also have an ebay
bid on an angelic pretty fukubukuro that ends in a day or so. <3
shopping! I'm also about to drop a hundred bucks on a five month bus
pass. And I believe my devart subscription is expiring in January and
I need to buy more lakerol (mmm salvi, salmiak and special...) because
I can't live without art and licorice.
I blame the weather... I'm clearly not in the right frame of mind!
Please excuse my shopping habits?
At least I found out (officially) today that I'm getting a tuition
refund because my (sevn hundred dollar!) grant was approved. Woot.
I guess hard work at celtt pays off. Better write my boss a thank you
(I hope things start to look up for you, E.)
about this just so it's out and I can ponder it later.
Lately I've been unusually sick.
My cold is wearing down, I'm barely coughing, and I just have a slight
scratchy voice in the mornings from a post nasal drip at night. So I'm
getting better on that front.
But lately I've been nauseated. And tired. It happened all of a
sudden. On Saturday I went to volunteer as usual but in the middle of
making charts I was starting to get light headed.
No wait, it started before that. The night before that I woke up and
tossed a little with stomach cramps. But I was fine in the morning
and passed it off as a dream.
So back to the surgicenter, I was pushing my papers and the light was
so white and bright and the words on the papers were dizzying, I swear
I was going to pass out. Instead I went to the bathroom and vomited.
Since my days of sleepless nights and AP exams I was used to nausea
and functioning at school on pure adrenaline and an empty stomach so I
acted casually and managed to scrape through my remaining three hours
at the sc.
The remainder of the day I was still nauseated but convinced it was a
24hr bug or food poisoning or maybe fatigue (although the latter two
were dim possibilities in my mind- I hadn't eaten much the night
before and I have not had any hard labor or stress in several weeks).
The next day, nausea again. And bad headaches. Not as bad headaches
as voggy day headaches, but still there. And not nauseous to the point
of throwing up or passing out but still there. Enough to keep me at
home and lethargic. What a waste of winter vacation.
And again today.
The morning was alright. I was a little woosey but I thought it was
from lack of sleep- I was up until 1am reading a book. Later in the
day- around 3pm I felt like I was swimming. I just wanted to go home
and lie down.
Now I have no idea what this could be. A virus? Perhaps. It's not
lack of food as I originally thought (in fact I wonder if it is over
eating- I don't usually finish my sandwich lunch in it's entirety).
Maybe too much licorice? I heard of a lady who went into a coma from
too much licorice. I do eat a lot of those lakerol pastilles
everyday... But I don't think I ate thaaaat much. And I didn't eat any
on sunday. I stopped taking my allergy drugs since I stopped coughing
so I don't think that's it either. So i am officially out of ideas.
I'm going to hope that this will just phase out and I can make myself
feel better by sucking licorice pastilles and convincing myself that
sickness is all in my mind. It seems to have worked before.
I just hope it's over soon (I hate feeling like I'm going to faint
everytime I stand up) because it's messing with my metabolism (if you
know what I mean... I can't really talk about it here) and just
making me feel crummy.
Mayhaps it's punishment for not drowning in my dream. Or a
psychsomatic terror (I'll tell you about that next time).
Mind over matter.
Mind over matter.
Mind over matter...
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