i have two frakking exams tomorrow: heme and immuno !
i am panicking !
i have no idea how i am going to memorize everything !
this is not even fair.
it's not cool.
there is just so much stuff to remember....
i don't know if i have the brain capacity or time to reread and rememorize everything !
i noticed that when i'm nervous i go into psycho cleaning mode.
i just spent an hour cleaning my room.
i don't know why i do it... i just... can't focus !
must clean !
and i have a mini fit of insanity and throw everything away !
stuff i've been hoarding for years i decide that it is unnecessary and i just toss it !
i am so sick of my stuff, i just want to throw everything away so that i'll have a nice clean empty room.
and when it is nice and sparkly and empty i can finally calm down and study.
actually, i'm going to stop cleaning and start studying again, now.
i don't even know what i'm thinking.
i just know, my mantra of
monoblast- nucleus- round in shape- fine chromatin- nucleoli.
monoblast- cytoplasm- moderate amount- blue in color- no granules.
i've been repeating that shit in my head over and over.
it seems to be working.
so now if i just reread everything else and repeat it 1000 times in my head i should be fine tomorrow.
random: my left ring finger is freaking out- kind of hurts to type with that finger.
i will not submit to rheumatoid! >:O
pains be gone!
THESE WASPS NESTS... THESE TERMINALS ONCE AGAIN.
THESE HEART SWELS, THIS CONTEX INNN YOUR HEAD,
OH HELL NO, THESE VESSELS
OUR HEART SWELLS UP THESE VESSELS OUR HEARTS SWELL UP
WHICH MAKES US EXPLODE ...............