SPEED THE COLLAPSE
on wednesday i was riding my bike on alapai street and got hit by a car.
it wasn't really serious... i'm not in traction or anything. in fact, i have no visible injuries, just arms and neck and butt is kind of bruised. helmet saved my brain. and gloves saved my hand from getting shredded by pavement. also, my bike is undamaged because my body cushioned it in the fall! (even my crabon wheel is in one piece LOL, i was sure it was going to snap.) nobody was home at the time so i had no choice but to ride home after that. i was kind of shaky heading uphill but i think the adrenaline got my through. usually when i'm biking i feel like i am hyper aware of everything- feel the ground and notice cars and people and signs. but on the way home i felt like i was sleepwalking and paranoid at every intersection. looking back, biking home was a bad idea, i should have taken the bus home.
now that it's over, i feel determined to ride again. i feel like i'm burning precious daylight and summertime by not riding! but i think i have a mild case of PTSD. the next day i went outside to give my bike a once over and look for cracks more carefully but i couldn't do it. i was unlocking my bike and my stomach seemed to drop down to my knees and my heart was racing. so i went back inside. the next day i went to unlock my bike and my heart was racing again. i was telling myself OK BRAIN, YOU HAVE TO GET OVER THIS MENTAL BLOCK STOP BEING A PANTY. i am absolutely determined to ride my bike, just around the block at least! my hand were shaking as i was trying to undo the cable part of the lock. so i gave up again. i haven't biked since wednesday.
i ordered a new helmet. my awesome b2 sxp
is supposed to be multi impact, but i'm not taking any chances! you're supposed to replace helmets after they've taken a crash so i ordered another and i'll just have this as my back up. interestingly, i remembered there is actually a warranty policy (yes, i'm one of those people that read the fine print and all the instructions before using a thing) where they would replace a crashed or damaged helmet for $10. however, my warranty had expired a few days before the crash. dommage!
maybe under the guises of safety i'll ride again.
i used to be so happy-
i'm ready to get that feeling back. :)
pushed away i'm moving toward a comedown with revolving doors fate don't fail me now...
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