one night i was at my friend's house and he said, "XXXXXX is biting your deuces."
"huh?" i replied.
"you know, she's your copy cat."

and this is true.
i have this friend.  who is an amazing person.
but she is copying me!
at first, i thought it was just the camera thing.  i take my 35mm almost everywhere and after we met, she started hunting hi and low for a film camera.  i thought, oh cool, someone to shoot film with!  and didn't think anything of it.  and then she bought the exact same camera strap as me.  ok... coincidence.  i'm not the only one in the world with this camera strap.

"yesterday she cut her hair like yours."
and then i started thinking, the last time i saw her she was saying she wanted to grow her hair out and i said "i like my hair short, in fact i'm cutting it next week".  and then she cut her hair into the same bob that i have.

that was about a year ago.  and i tried not to care.  but once the idea is incepted... i started noticing more things.

my watch broke.  so i got the nixon newton.  and then she got a square watch too.  ok... more coincidence.  square watches are pretty trendy.

we went to a garage sale and i found some polaroid film.  "you have a polaroid??!" she asks.  "yes, i'll bring it around sometime.  now i have a lot of film since impossible project is full speed ahead!" i say.  and next month she has a pola + impossible film.  i guess i brought up the subject so what can i say...

i bought a new bike.  she bought the same bike.  i have a white helmet.  she bought the same helmet- even after repeatedly saying she doesn't like or want to wear a helmet.

she traded in her nikon DSLR so we would both have canon DSLRs.

i have pink vans, she bought pink sneakers.  i bought blue mascara, she bought blue mascara.  i like XCM, she buys a couple of decks of cards and asks me to teach her the werm.

i'm feeling a little conflicted.
am i overreacting?  maybe we are friends because we are similar and she's not a copying me... but i just get this funny feeling.  should i be flattered?  should i just ignore it?  why should i care?  i don't know.  maybe i feel like my "essence" is being stolen. whatever that means.  maybe i'm not the most original person either, but i try to have my own style.  i should be flattered that someone likes whatever style possess but i am not flattered by this blatant plagiarism.

this is kind of a self indulgent post/rant so i'll just stop here.

i need to pump some lactic acid.
today i biked around diamond head


1. new garbage on may 15!

automatic systematic habit sounds pretty cool already.  i think i'll preview the album on itunes after it comes out.  i really love their songs bleed like me:

and run baby run

what is going on in this video, i don't really get the tarot card reader part...

2. alexander mcqueen spring/summer 2012 runway


a girl can dream...

3. summer reading:

yesterday i finished another novel, wind through the keyhole a.k.a. dark tower 4.5

great for DT fans and also great if you loved Eyes of the Dragon!!

so now it is time to start on a novel that i have been meaning to read but never had the time!  i hear not many people read the stand but those who do are "super stand fans".  i've already started, and according to my ipod i am 101 pages down, 3844 pages to go.  :)

4. red blood cells

through the scope
i've added notes on what you are looking at, on my flickr.

i finally figured out how to take pictures through the microscope with my ipod!  now i can show you cool science stuffs.

ok, that's it!


you're overwhelmed, freeze was underwhelmed, how come nobody is  just... whelmed? 
- Robin, in Young Justice

hey guyssss!  summer is upon us.
just finished my final exams this morning!  it went... badly.
i didn't fall asleep in the middle (i worked from 11pm-7am and then took my exam at 730am blargh!) but i didn't have as much time to study as i would have liked.  so sad, i am most definitely going to have to take calcII again. T____T  as for Ochem, i didn't do well on that final either but i have slightly higher hopes for a passing grade.
despite the bleak future, this semester was NOT a total bust;  it has taken me 20 years of school but i finally figured out HOW TO STUDY.  yes, that is right, i learned the secrets of studying.  i was not studying properly before this year.  the secret is mostly time and sleep.  i need to spend about 2.5 hours rewriting class notes for every 1 hour of lecture.  you have to stay organized (keep everything from the beginning of the semester!!  yes, this also means my room currently has enough kindling for a small forest fire because i have 2x the amount of notes- one from class and one rewrite, plus whatever practice problems) .  and you have to be fully awake/aware of what you are writing both times.  this is the hard part because it usually means 2hrs of sleep between school and work is all you get.  :C
i have never been tempted to have energy drinks before (my vice is black coffee) but i don't understand how other people do it otherwise!  i may try it next semester.  or caffeine pills.  it is so hard to stay awake AND focus.  24hr days is ok, but i'm usually a zombie near the 18hr mark (strangely after you get over the inital NEEEEED SLEEEEEEEP stage, and closer to 24hr mark you are less sleepy.  it's like when george amberson tried to change the past and the past didn't want to be changed so it was stopping him with all kinds of obstacles... and then he moved beyond ka and suddenly everything trying to stop him moved away).
right now, i'm just whelmed.  i am done with school for the next few months and that's all i want to think about.  disheartened about grades?  yes.  but i think  i will do better next time.  done is done (can't be undone) and no point ruining the summer thinking about how you could have changed the past.

did i mention that i finished 11/22/63 !?  wow, what a book.  what an ending.  while it's not directly related to the dark tower, i understand about time travel and ka a lot better now.  things ended... sadly, but it couldn't have been any other way.  i won't give away more, you'll have to read it for yourself!!  you will be overwhelmed by the vividness and realism of the past!!  and it is very exciting to see the chain of events leading up to the ultimate moment!!!!!!!! and then it's done in a flash.  when it's finished you will say O DISCORDIA, WHAT HAVE WE DONE?! i love it when you get absorbed in a story. in paper, it's 800+ pages.  not as long as under the dome

this cover gets me everytime

but on an ipod?  it's the first novel i've finished on an ipod touch.  lengthy and fuilling.

ok, who watched cardistry death match finals?
anyone else underwhelmed by the videos?  :/

after the semi videos i was TEAM LADISLAS!


but after the finals:


i don't know what to think now...
i like the geonetry but i was hoping for more fans and flourishes?
tell me what you think in the comments!  or better yet, tell the artists what you think on theur respctive youtube pages.  :D   overall, great show from all the CDM11 flourishers, very creative and keep bringing the aster!

and finally...

young justice season 2 is ON!
/semi spoilers... but i didn't give away any plot/
five years after auld acquaintence things are right in the DC universe (on earth-16, anyway).  dick is nightwing. zatanna has her normal costume and joined JL.  beast boy is back, superboy is unattached (what happened?!), m'gann got a hair cut, wally west is gone (like in the dc comic world/new 52! T____T). speedy is still M.I.A. (stuck at cadmus w/lex? or with vandal savage?) first appearance of donna troy! (i *think* wonder girl is donna troy.  who can tell on earth-16?) tim is robin (and dick approves. awwww, happy bat family moment!) and steph (or barbara?) makes a cameo.

my favorite part?  adam stange!! he's fraking hillarious!!  BEWARE THE JABBAWOCK MY SONNNNNN!!!!!!!!!
i know he's invovled with the rann-thanagarian war so maybe the hawks will show up soon? :D

and, no i didn't watch avengers yet. ._____.

off to work now,
stay whelmed!




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