on the seventh day of spring break...
came home from work super tired and was just taking it easy.

spent the day listening to some rooster teeth back catalog (it's like hanging out with friends)

cleaning house, doing laundry (nothing like the smell and warmth of fresh sheets and blanket out of the dryer).  i am so obsessed with deafheaven right now.  listening to Pecan Tree the whole time.

playing L4D2 with @wild_twinkies

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wore these socks to work

not sure if this title is too obscure a reference? i couldn't think of anything else appropriate for the number 7.  probably having a brain fart, i'm sure there are other things that come in 7s.
ANYWAY, if you don't know 7seconds:

i recommend their album "the crew".


on the sixth day of spring break...

i went to the comic book store!


i went to the fishing supply store!

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i played mah jong!

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i went to work in these socks!

played this song during morning rounds

Although my lover lives in a place that I can't live I kind of find I like a life this lonely"


on the fifth day of spring break...

i played tf2 with @wild_twinkies (a.k.a. hold my poodle: )

got the congo line achievement!

my whole team was dancing before the round started! i joined in too but then it was too much for my computer to handle... started glitching and lagging so i had to leave without taking a screen shot.  :(
if i had no school and no job and internet all the time i would play tf2 so much!  who cares if it's an old game, it never gets boring. :)  alas, real life tends to get in the way of fun and as a result... I SUCK.

(yes, my name is "can i get a hot tub" like in that state farm commercial)

but, i am a polite player, join me some time if you like tf2!

instead of music, instead i present you with some fun tf2 videos (warning, LOUD & FOUL language!  turn down your speakers if such things offend you).

"BRB 30 MINUTES!"  LOL!  such epic rage!

and here is the epic KITTYGEDDON server

you can tell the players were not suspecting because of the "WTF" comments.  must've been so awesome to be surprised like that!


on the fourth day of spring break...

i arrived home from my 12hr shift totally starvingggggg!
my pops picked me up from work, he took some extra days off too (coincidence!  he forgot i was on spring break).  he was like, "we have apple naples from zippys?..."  he must've seen the thought bubble over my head "GIRL, I DON'T WANT NO APPLE NAPLE!  I'M SO HUNGRY I COULD EAT AN APPLE TREE..." so he made me left over beef tacos for breakfast! :D  i meant to take a picture but... i ate it too fast, haha.

i read the newspaper.  (the jumble... too easy today!  but the super quiz was too hard.  and no, i didn't recognize anyone in the obituaries.)

and i really wanted to go fishing with pops today but i was falling asleep reading the newspaper.  i threw in the towel and took a nap until noon.

and then i finished writing a paper on roman poetry:

and then i went to 3:30 yoga.
O. M. G.
it was a fucking hard yoga class!  Abe was subbing for Dorian and he super worked us today!  Abe is the quiet slow yoga teacher where you move slow but some how manage to work up a mean sweat.  but today was pure flow.  we did 12 surya namaskar B.  TWELVE.

plus some variations in between like side planks and half moons and a reverse warriors.  that was 36 push ups, 24 warriors, 24 reverse warriors... i am so pooped!  BUT, also exhilarated!  we didn't do any inversions so when i got home i did my daily hand stand.  i was so balanced!  found that sweet spot on the first try and didn't need the wall (yes, i still use the wall, no big deal).  satisfying. :) i felt like i could just float upside down foreverrrrrrrr...

anyway, before i went home i stopped at ala moana to drop off some clothes alterations.  and then i rode the 5:45 bus all the way back to pauoa listening to this song:


on the third day of spring break...

i got started on the bai san money

paper money

i watched the RT Podcast live stream!

i got called in to work early.  12 hour shift, ftw!  i'd like to think i saved the day.  when i got in, evening shift was drowning in ER blood cultures, body fluids, and blood bank antibodies.  in reality, they suffer this much every day!  hardest working shift, in my opinion!  i cleaned up chem pending first, then went down to a stroke code, then i plated a mountain of urine cultures, and finally typed an entire shelf of blood with sean, looking for fya negatives.  (we only found 4 in the whole shelf, even though statistically you should find 1 in 4 are negative)

and that was only evening shift.  then i worked my own shift.  which was a normal level of business- nothing ridiculous.  anyway, i wore these socks

and listened to this song doing morning rounds


so this is that roman literature paper i wrote on the third day of my spring break.
it's based on this book:

The Complete Poems

The poems of Catullus vary in meter, style, and theme.  While Catullus conveys his thoughts effectively through the individual poems, it is not known how he intended to portray them as a collection.  In Catullus Complete Poems (Oxford World’s Classics) the poems are arranged by meter and in no particular thematic order.  In order to show a more cohesive narrative and better represent the philosophy of Catullus, the following revised arrangement is proposed:

27, 29, 31, 33, 46, 73, 78, 81, 84

2B, 4, 17, 25, 34, 53, 60, 61, 62, 63, 64, 66, 67, 68B

10, 26, 28, 39,52, 54, 55, 56, 57, 113, 114

57, 59, 74,78B, 80, 88, 89, 90, 94, 97, 98, 105, 106, 111

2, 3, 24, 45, 86, 87

14B, 16, 42, 93, 98

1, 6, 15, 50, 68A, 102

8, 11, 60,85, 99, 104

9, 13, 32, 58, 100, 101, 109

12, 14, 21, 22, 23, 30, 35, 36, 37, 38, 47, 40,41, 44, 49,77, 82, 91, 95, 103, 110, 108, 116

5, 7, 51, 43, 58, 70, 72, 75, 76, 79, 83, 92, 109

Preferably, the poems would be visually represented in a nestled grouping to indicate overlapping themes:

The poems are to be read from the inside out, starting with observations and converging on the crux of all themes, Lesbia.
            Catullus self identified with the neoteric poets and writes many poems about his contemporaries and other aspects of the average roman citizen life, compared to other poets of his past and present who wrote epics of great detail and length.  In comparison, the poems of Catullus are succinct (but not any less potent) and are of a more familiar content.  His poems can be thought of as observations and are a glimpse of his life philosophy.  Some of his poems describe the landscape and way of life, such as XXXI about Sirimo, “O what more blissful than to have no worries”. (30.7) Just like in current times, The roman citizen felt pressures of living in the city and enjoyed the ocean or countryside for relaxation when not in times of war.  Other poems, are scenes from roman city life, “O best of thieves in public baths...” (33.1)
            Epics were a common poetry style of the era, often spanning several papyri and chronicling long detailed stories in a Greek style.  Even Catullus could not escape this genre of poetry.  However, the length is more manageable and the stories he chooses to tell are of relationships between people, compared to the more traditional epics, which may focus on war, creation of a kingdom, or gods’ influence over mortals.  For example, in LXIVa story of lost love is told in duplicate as a warning to all newly wed couples.  “But once the longing of their lustful mind is slaked They don’t recall their words or balk at perjury.” (64.147) Although fantastical characters are mentioned, the main theme of the story is forlorn love.  The stories are best read after Catullus’ general observations because they are narratives from his point of view.  The mini-epics are longer than his other poems and can include many themes based on his observations.  Catullus’ narrative voice can be easier defined in the longer poems and are like an over view for the tone of his other shorter poems.
            Returning to the more concrete realm of Catullus’ life, the topic of politics can be enjoyed after general observations and stories.  Politics are poems that describe the social strata of ancient Rome; not just politicians but also the aristocratic or low-life commoners and their interaction with the rest of the society.  More specifically, many poems seem to be about public perverts.  This salacious gossip is entertaining but not crass- many metaphors are used to allude to the lewd acts performed.  From the content of Catullus, as well as other known authors of old Rome (such as Suetonius), it would seem that perverts were rampant in the city despite being frowned upon by society.  Fortunately for readers, perverts lend themselves as quality material for Catullus’ witty poetry.  “Seeing an auctioneer with a pretty boy One can’t but think he wants to sell himself.” (106) and “TOOL tries to scale the Mount of Pipla: Muses with pitchforks throw him down.” (105) speak humorously of playboys in just a few clever lines.
            The following categories of love, hate, and friends are overlapping realms.  While they are contradicting themes, it is not uncommon to find people who occupy more than one of these realms.  One particular person Catullus names is his love, Lesbia, who occupies all three realms. 
            “Friend” is a general term used here to represent associates of Catullus.  Some are more familiar to the author and are mentioned more often while some characters in the poems are Roman citizens known by name.  Friend is also a descriptor used lightly; while often referring to people on good terms with each other, Catullus also attacks some associates on account of promiscuous behavior, or more comically, bad body odor.  “You feed a fierce goat down in Arm-Pit Valley.” (69.6) Based on Catullus’ other poems, it does not seem like the attacks are on enemies, but are rather sarcasm or criticism of friends.  Catullus obviously knew these subjects well enough to judge their character.  One example is in XLIV, of a dinner party of a writer whose works are so dry they gave Catullus a cough.  “For while I wanted to be Sestius’ guest I read his Speech packed with poison and with pestilence, Whereat a feverish cold and chronic cough Kept shaking me…” (44.10) Attacks on enemies, are listed strictly under the category of hate, as they only convey feelings and are not directed toward a specific person, “I’ll bugger you and stuff your gobs… For thinking me, because my verses Are rather sissy, not quite decent.” (16.1) speaks out violently against critics of the author’s works.  Other poems of romance, such as XXXII, not involving Lesbia, are categorized under love.  “Please, my love, sweet Ipsitilla, My darling, my own clever girl, Command my presence at siesta…” (32.1)
            The pinnacle of Catullus’ poems is the ones featuring Lesbia. The author had conflicting feelings for Lesbia and the inner torment this caused him is reflected in his poetry.  Love is a complicated emotion that cannot be described in a single sentence, let alone a single poem.  Catullus’ observations of humanity are layered to create a complex description of his feelings toward Lesbia.  Thus, it is only appropriate to read the poems concerning her after reading through Catullus’ other works to see where he draws inspiration.  His general feelings toward Lesbia is of lust- a combination of love and perversion.  However, one can elucidate Lesbia does not reciprocate feelings of love completely and is in fact an adulteress, based on the poems. “Lesbia’s always abusing me… I’m just the same- forever praying to be rid of her, but I’m damned if I don’t love her.” (92.1) Perhaps one of Catullus’ most infamous poems, LXXXV, is a self reflection on love.  Although Lesbia is not explicitly mentioned, she is likely the subject of this poem due to her actions and history with Catullus.  Lesbia’s actions are despicable yet Catullus cannot help but fall for her charm and beauty.  “For many Quintia’s beautiful; for me she’s fair… Now Lesbia’s beautiful, wholly most lovely, and alone She has robbed them all of all their charms.” (86.1) His hyperbolic descriptions of her is an indication of infatuation, but to continue loving her even knowing of her promiscuous activities is more than just shallow admiration of her beauty, it is love. 
            Catullus was not only a clever wordsmith but an idealistic observer of humanity.  He was self aware, recognizing his own contradicting feelings toward Lesbia.  He is a great poet because he is able to combine his observations with complex feelings and express them in enjoyable diction and meter.  While some may consider a genius to be the man who comprehends complex ideas, it is useless information if it cannot be communicated.  Catullus is a hero of Roman literature because he found the timeless complexities of everyday life and presented them to readers in the form of clever poetry that can be comprehended and enjoyed for many generations.  




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